Sunday, March 26, 2006 ' 7:51 PM Y
& your soul is all i ever wanted
Rantings of kchan. Readers, please don't take offence at the direction of the ramblings.Bite me.Chew. Swallow. Digest. Egest.
Hectic life, semi-hectic weekend.
Run around for meetings.
Gp meetings, Pre U sem meetings, Malaysian scholars meetings...
get so pissed during certain meetings.
And wonder sometimes, why Do i even bother?
Why put in the effort?
I have other things too. So do you.
Can't we take more pride in ourselves people?
I know you're all happy to be going on with your little lives out there.
Honestly, I'd be happy too. To let you,
Live and survive with out us.
You'd have no problems I'm sure.
Maybe its repercussion.
For all the times I've done this to others in the past.
Well. My efforts are not working.
Thank heaven for you out there who are supportive.
Thank you SO much.
Otherwise. I might just throw in the towel.
Let you freak out when faced with the reality
Of responsibility. and Deadlines.
Responsibilities.
And how people,
perceive us as a whole
and group us as an entity
and make widespread assumptions of us all.
Because.
I'm not exceptionally good at what I do.
But I do try. you could
at least. give me some attention.
otherwise. I'll *insert profanity* put you up here.
And you run the thing.
And I'll go. and lead
my own happy life without you.
Counter my personality.
Sore throats from speaking.
Sick of trying to get you to respond.
HECK. Don't you know how much
An audience means to a speaker?
But what the hell.
I bet you don't really care do you?
Sometimes.
I think.
I'm simply.
Crazy.
yeah yeah, not a nice sounding piece no? writer is not in one of her best moods. She's happy to be busy in fact. She's got lots of stuff she wants in life right now. Well, maybe except home life and no PE. And to face such dissatisfaction. No wonder han ren can get so tao-ed. I know how han ren feels now. Maybe I should become more utilitarian. Monday: Public speaking competition. damn shit I misplaced my paper. Deadline for PreU sem research. and got make up PE. in the morning. I'll be just drained. time table swap too. So i'll just go nuts tomorrow. save me a place in the ICU. Tuesday: PE day. mannnn. Wednesday: short day thank goodness. but got preUsem meeting anyway. So yay. stay back again. >.> maths test on CRV.Thursday: Another long day. afternoon PE. luckily no bridge.Friday: I and E day. damn. and after that. Present the presentation for someone to comment on i bet. doesnt look too bad, my week ahead. Slot in other things, tutorials, extra work, revision if I even have the time, blah blah blah. I don't mind being busy. But. I don't like being MORE busy for things which I feel are a waste of time. And I seem to be one of the people wasteing THE most time on it. Leave me in the dark abyss. What dying light?
