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Tuesday, January 17, 2006 ' 8:09 PM Y

& your soul is all i ever wanted

endless repercussions and attachment...

Log of my day...which is defintely not of the ordinary...

Woke up this morning after a nice longer sleep than usual. Meaning I slept befpre 1 am, perhaps even 12. Thought I'd have another typical long horrible Tuesday (okay it still is horrible) but no........ i went to the LT and...... started ........ sneezing....just deteriorated from there. made the announcement about winning our solar plus competition and went for Bio tutorial. That's when the aircond got me ( i was still feeling okay) and i just got washed down the drain. Come time for PE, i was just so sick and tired I told the teacher i wasn't feeling well and sat there for an hour, hoping to recover. Did I? NOOO.

bah, after PE I didnt feel any better so I gave up, got the early leave, saw a doctor and headed back for hostel. Got 3 medicines now, lozenges, some anti histamines and something for my mild headaches. On the way back (longing for bed) this Indian man approached me. Said he is on religious practice and needs to consume something before 12 noon. He asked for money initially, but I said I'd buy him something to eat. Then took him to Cold Storage and bought him 2 liters of milk. Listened to him say a lot of things on the way, but I took it with a pinch of salt. So, I'll blog about our conversation later, kinda interesting....but i want sleep now, so it'll have to wait.

hmm. got back, slept till 4pm. woke up and started onlining...no more nose probs but ... my brain isn't functioning somehow. like...disoriented. (I'm just blogging to make myself feel better. plus I want to remember to blog abt the indian man)

On a more.....weird moody point of view...I just officially quit my old RO server, nlro. the person I married on nlro doesnt seem totally happy. and I feel like i'm to blame. but what the heck...I refuse to be the superbly nice person I am trying to be and be considerate to everyone on this whole planet. Point, first its a game, and second, its an attachment. Worse is, I feel a wrench letting down an opinion he has held of me. I don't even know why I care. So I've quit, hope I can control the fRO addiction to a minimum. At lesat I get destressed there and have fun. Maybe that is what keeps me perky in the mornings. I don't know.

and I will be using my MSN account on a less regular basis So i can concentrate better. and so that I won't be so nice to ppl who WILL msg me when I'm on busy status. Don't blame them though, only have myself to blame. I shouldnt even on the laptop. argh. i feel so anti-social. Maybe its the medication but my spirits are at a LOW abyss of...the erm...Dead Sea (lowest altitude in the world i think)

Arti says I don't sound like my normal perky self. I don't even feel close to it. I dont wanna go to school tomorrow. I wanna sleep!!!!

Got 2 phone calls today, from mom and dad. both asked me to ge back my maths tutor. my brain is.....aimless and I shall go sleep now. I have other frustrations i Shall blog about in the hopefully near future.

Lil mis CK: looking for someone to make me happy....

Cest MoiY

Xtine
Loves
Music

'I dreamt that I was composing a symphony....I had gone to my table to begin writing it down when I suddenly reflected: "If I write this part I shall let myself be carried on to write the rest. The natural tendency of my mind to expand the material is sure to make it very long...When the symphony is finished I shall be weak enough to allow my copyist to copy it out, and thus immediately incur a debt of 1,000 or 1,200 francs. Once the parts are copied I shall be harassed by the temptation to have the work performed; I shall give a concert in which, as is sure to be the case in these days, the receipts will barely cover half the expenses; I shall lose what I have not got; I shall want the necessaries of life for my poor invalid, and shall have no money for either myself or for my son's keep on board ship!"...I threw down my pen saying, "Bah! I shall have forgotten the symphony tomorrow." But the following night the obstinate symphony again presented itself...'
- Berlioz writing about a nightmare he had during the 1850s

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job >3
grand piano <3
happiness

SCREAM;TALKY

(where to get one)

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