Thursday, October 20, 2005 ' 6:03 PM Y
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not happy....trying to be satisfied (not succeeding)to Not satisfied, but thanking the heavens and moreThat would be refering to my nickname on MSN messenger for the past few days. yeah. Unexpectedly, loads of people inquired about my nickname. Does it really sound that bad? I guess it must, otherwise there wouldn't be so many people concerned about it. Thanks guys! The support was really meaningful to me. Plus, I really needed it. The cause of dissatisfaction... what else other than my results? The following are the inital results I'd achieved, in order of grade.
Bio - 64.5 BChem - 54 DGP - 54 C5Physics - 44 OMaths - 26 FHorrible, especially my math. I can't deny it was expected, I'd braced myself for the worst, but... the ones which I was really frustrated with were GP and Physics. Reason? Well, I prepped really a lot for Physics, and I was expecting to at least PASS...as you can see, I fell one mark short of passing. ONE MARK from a grade jump in not only Physics, but also GP and Chem! And what's more, I got 23 for my GP essay. Heaps of people got 27 for what they wrote, so I was wondering, where did I go wrong??
My mum told me to accept my results, they are produced from my best efforts, I shouldn't make myself feel bad over them.My "kai-kor" told me he saw definite improvement in everything, and thats what counts. Although my maths needs a lot of work.Jian Wei, who calls me "kai-jie" quoted "It is not how many times one falls...but whether one can get back up when he or she falls".And loads more of my friends and family offered encouraging words, my classmates, fellow scholars and all. Even my teachers.All I can say is, once more, THANK YOU, you have no idea how much it means to me.
Anyway I've changed my nickname. Thats cause today, my class teacher called me (I was absent due to flu, which seems to have recovered by now, thank goodness. the medication i'm taking is STRONG man...) and confirmed my marks with me. Here are my final confirmed grades.Bio 63 BGP 55 B4Chem 54 D (still unconfirmed, I really really hope i got 1 mark for a C)Physics 45 D (i PASSED!! thank heavens!!)Maths 26 F (unchanged)I'm just too grateful for words. Honest. to think that I'd get the marks i needed for the grade jump, which I thought was impossible!! If I were well and healthy I'd probably shout and scream with happiness.I also read my class teachers blog today. Well, I was very touched. One can see she really really cares about the students in her life. sad to think that she may not be taking my class next year. sighs. But I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.Still feeling the effects of flu and medication. and I've got a bit of work to do.In a reflective mood today, based on my post.
