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Monday, September 05, 2005 ' 11:52 PM Y

& your soul is all i ever wanted

Mish Mash of contemplations and revelations

Lets do the happy stuff. I spent Saturday LAUGHING. It was good! I was also rather happy coz I recovered from my bad....flu like symptoms I'd experienced since merdeka. Yeah. So...Why was I so happy? Can't really remember. But Ying Lee said its like all the good things happened to me that day. I'll just state the 2 big sources of laughter:

1) According to my friend whose identity should be protected, when the Malaysians who were formerly in Singapore and went back for JPA (lucky pigs) studying in Shah Alam received a post card I sent to them, one of the guys got the impression, that since I wrote "(hahaha)" in brackets behind his name (which i listed last)....HE GOT THE IDEA THAT I LIKED HIM!! (rolls on the floor laughing) Ru Xing, one of the former ASEAN scholars, however, saved the day by telling him I probably added his name as an after thought, so he wouldn't feel left out. (rolls about in glee) as you can see, I am still highly amused by this.

2) MY DAD DYED HIS HAIR!!!! HIGHLIGHTS IN 3 DIFFERNT KINDS OF BLONDE!!

WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY??

Yeap, so now for the contemplations part.

My friend just told me she's considering terminating her scholarship at the end of this year. We have talked about it, the idea is SUPERBLY attractive I must admit, but....but....well. Words fail me. Its something I never foreseen. In fact a month ago I was happily motivating myself with images of what J2 life might be like, and how we could be coping with it. But well. She has her reasons. And for my own selfish reasons I hope she doesnt go.

That's because deep down, somewhere, I know there is a reason we are here. the fact that we're here in my opinion is an indication that we have the ability to succeed! Just have to dig it out of the deep reccess its hiding in. Problem is, we can't dig forever. Not to mention the pressure people put on us here. > <.

Quitting SiNGAPORE. Tempting. Like a forbidden fruit, so luscious, within reach and yet....

And considering I don't even HAVE to be here. I could be in the USA now...
But then I wouldn't know the people I know now.
Ergh. Confusion.

and my promotional exams are a month away. Oh no! I'm studying hard. But. Is it enough?

-looking. searching. waiting. for the answer.-

Cest MoiY

Xtine
Loves
Music

'I dreamt that I was composing a symphony....I had gone to my table to begin writing it down when I suddenly reflected: "If I write this part I shall let myself be carried on to write the rest. The natural tendency of my mind to expand the material is sure to make it very long...When the symphony is finished I shall be weak enough to allow my copyist to copy it out, and thus immediately incur a debt of 1,000 or 1,200 francs. Once the parts are copied I shall be harassed by the temptation to have the work performed; I shall give a concert in which, as is sure to be the case in these days, the receipts will barely cover half the expenses; I shall lose what I have not got; I shall want the necessaries of life for my poor invalid, and shall have no money for either myself or for my son's keep on board ship!"...I threw down my pen saying, "Bah! I shall have forgotten the symphony tomorrow." But the following night the obstinate symphony again presented itself...'
- Berlioz writing about a nightmare he had during the 1850s

SHE WANTSY

job >3
grand piano <3
happiness

SCREAM;TALKY

(where to get one)

EXITSY

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