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Monday, January 17, 2005 ' 10:12 PM Y

& your soul is all i ever wanted
Bad Day (the first of many to come)

Yes, I’m being super pessimistic. I’ve also had a relatively bad day. In my standards that is. Well…where shall I start? Bad days usually stretch from morning till end…so let’s start with the morning. I had intended to wake up at 3 am to do my homework (it’s one of my peculiarities) but I slammed the alarm shut because when I woke up (yes, I did wake up) I felt as if I did not have enough sleep. Besides waking up and having weird dreams after that (dreams that indicate I miss home I might mention) I suppose it was a good idea to go back to sleep. Anyway I woke up again at 5.15….dragged myself out of bed and up to wash. This requires a feasible amount of discipline, let me assure you. Especially when the morning is cold and you have to leave your nice warm bed!

Breakfast today was…..burger bun with cheese slice, tomato and cucumber. Not bad….the only thing is Pei Ying and I got down early, so we made toast in a not-hot toaster as we waited for them to get breakfast ready for serving. Note….after my first slice of toast dropped out all the rest got stuck on the slide landing platter….and I had to fish them out with a fork….and then my hand. It’s a blessing I didn’t burn myself.

Went to school as usual….Monday morning blues in the bus…all I did was listen to guys talk ‘guy talk’ in the bus as I sang or hummed to myself (I was still feeling cheerful and perky at that time). I also had the chance to observe how everyone sleeps in the bus on the way to school…..and for the millionth time cursed my pony tail which prevents me from getting into the most comfortable position for snoozing. You have no idea how tempting it feels to get one’s hair cut when faced which such situations. In school morning assembly went in as usual…nothing special happened. After that….straight to Chem tutorial. Ugh. I made a huge blunder on the whiteboard when I volunteered to show my answer there…..HOW can I forget that Calcium chloride is CaCl2 not Ca2Cl?? Ugh ugh UGH. My brain is mush.

Maths was next…and to my horror…they had arranged a seating position in which, again as in Chemistry lectures….MY CLASS IS AT THE BACK. I am sooooo SO SO SO grumpy about it…I HATE sitting at the back!!! That’s because I cannot feel utmost attention with the teacher standing so far away from me…that it becomes so tempting to fall asleep. I guess that’s the bad thing of being used to grabbing the seat in front (which is what I do almost everywhere I go). The only consolation I have is that my current Maths lecturer has a very nice way of lecturing, and a very nice voice that does not induce sleepiness (for me that is).

After Math I had PHYSICAL EDUCATION, the bulk of my grumpiness today. Seriously. I feel like a grouch. Physical education in Singapore, all I can say, is, it’s gonna turn me into a super athlete. ESPECIALLY physical education (PE) in AJC (Anderson Junior College). I ran-walked 2.4 KM and more today…..I am still stunned by the fact I am still breathing and not in some hospital somewhere. Whoever knows me…..once I’m back in Malaysia in June you can probably invite me on 5 km runs…. PE was hellish today, and it’s gonna get worse!! Of course, partially my fault for being a exercise-phobic-person. I am very thankful I joined the PKBM, and more thankful I did a bit of yoga before….it really helped me a lot. Note….the more capital letters in here…the more frustrated I am.

After PE (2.4 km run!!! Not to mention our warm up!!) we had 45 minutes to shower etc…but seriously…I don’t think it was enough. And my shorts were soaked, my shirt was soaked, my tank top was soaked…..it sucked. There is NO other word for it. Good thing I brought along soap and a plastic bag. After PE we had General Paper…where I quite enjoyed myself….until I got my homework. Argh!! It’s not even done yet…I’m suffering from writer’s block!!! Which is why I need to blog and sleep. I’m getting up at 3am tomorrow. But that’s not the end of my woes….I have more!! I got back at 6pm today….totally exhausted (and had a terrible dinner) but I bucked myself up and did my laundry. Pei Ying and I dumped a huge load of clothes into a washing machine and headed for dinner. After that I played the piano as I waited for the clothes to be done. When I went to dry the clothes…to my delight…the big dryer was empty!! I loaded it, and went to turn it on. That’s when I realized that ALL the dryers were NOT WORKING!! I spent the next 20 minutes climbing up and down from the office to the laundry room (well waiting for the darn lift actually) and in the end……I HAD TO BRING my clothes up and hang them!! Pei Ying and I zapped into study time too, I’m only thankful no one came to check on us as we handled out laundry. I think I’ll take a picture of all those hanging things….it’s like an open wardrobe.

Okay, after venting that all out I feel much better…perhaps it’s the cure for my writer’s block!! Main thing now….either do homework and sleep or sleep and do homework. I think there are only 2 things that could have made my day better if they had happened. P&C. (Private and Confidential)

In fact the only ONLY nice thing that happened today was that : I GOT MAIL!!! And very unexpected mail too!!

Still Frustrated
Christine

Cest MoiY

Xtine
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'I dreamt that I was composing a symphony....I had gone to my table to begin writing it down when I suddenly reflected: "If I write this part I shall let myself be carried on to write the rest. The natural tendency of my mind to expand the material is sure to make it very long...When the symphony is finished I shall be weak enough to allow my copyist to copy it out, and thus immediately incur a debt of 1,000 or 1,200 francs. Once the parts are copied I shall be harassed by the temptation to have the work performed; I shall give a concert in which, as is sure to be the case in these days, the receipts will barely cover half the expenses; I shall lose what I have not got; I shall want the necessaries of life for my poor invalid, and shall have no money for either myself or for my son's keep on board ship!"...I threw down my pen saying, "Bah! I shall have forgotten the symphony tomorrow." But the following night the obstinate symphony again presented itself...'
- Berlioz writing about a nightmare he had during the 1850s

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